It seemed to me that the year is passing by extremely fast. Two more months and it will be 2010. Ten years ago, we were still buzzing about the new millennium and now its 2010...amazing. I was 19 then, now just reached 29 reaching 30...another chapter of my life in 11 months time. 30...seemed so far away then, but now just another step away. Feeling a little lost about what the future might hold for me..where would I be in another 10 years time? 21 to 30 seemed to be the usual rite of passage like everyone else...completed my NS, got my degree, found a job..looking back, I felt a little sense of regret that I didnt do anything different, anything that I can call my personal achievement. Well, I did get a decent degree and eventually found a decent job..got a decent pay..but sometimes I just wonder of the many "what if"s, what if I did something out of the box?
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After nearly four years into my job, things started to get a little boring. I start to wonder if I have anything more to learn, any room for progress. I am lucky to be able to be at where I am now...3 years, assistant manager..I cant say I am not happy...but at the same time I think of the many other possibilities and opportunities I could have gotten if I have taken the step to venture out when I had the chance. I wish to believe I got here based on my abilities and not by chance. I hope I am right.
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October came and went...I had my 29th birthday. My best friend came back from New York. This is the first time in years that he celebrated my birthday with me. haha. I am thankful for that. I am thankful to Juztin and Paul too..my two dear friends who are such nice people...caring and unassuming. To my other friends who sent me their well wishes..thank you guys too :)
29 years...made numerous friends along the way...new ones came...old ones gone...but only a few I can truely call my treasured friends. I am glad I got to them especially Kenneth..been friends for 15 years already. We knew each other for half our lives! He opened my eyes to alot of things..in many ways..I wished I can be like him. Free spirited, adventurous and eloquent. He is like the person I wanted to be but did not end up being. I still remember when we were young, we were both good in Art, he is the better one..I am the follower who hope to outdo him...haha..childish when I think of it now. But, talent is someting you cant learn no matter how hard you try. That is why now I am an engineer and he is the architect. Ha..
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